A quality that describes my life would be pain. Hurting has been a part of my life as far back as i can remember. Sometimes I wonder how much of it is my fault. I wonder if I could be different would I hurt so much. Sometimes I worry that I hurt others as much as they hurt me. Sometimes I hate myself for that. I have a good heart. But sometimes it doesnt show. Well, lots. I dont let many people in. Even after they are in I push away a lot. Sometimes I wonder if my pain is all my fault.